We are literally having a miracle of one sort or another a day and are totally living on faith so I figure I should keep sharing and giving God glory for what He is doing, even in the small things. I know it helps for me to remember how faithful He is being as we go the route He has obviously planned for us (every time we try to do things differently it all falls through so we are being very careful to stay in His will–and right now that seems to mean Shamus writing and me painting and doing some web design work with a little extra work on the side) and hopefully it will encourage others who have found themselves in tight situations. Yesterday’s awesomeness kind of trumped a smaller but just as meaningful little miracle the day before that I had intended to share.
On Wednesday Rachel had planned a daddy date that fell through due to Shamus’ migraine. She had wanted him to take her to JC Penney’s to use the gift card she had gotten for her birthday. Needless to say she was very disappointed when he couldn’t take her. I offered to take her instead since I had library books to return and a Michael s gift card to use. After stopping at the library where she ran into a friend she hadn’t seen in a while we went to JC Penney’s. At first she was not too enthusiastic, but we quickly found several things she loved (including the ninja shirt she was wearing in the pictures yesterday). We then headed to Michael’s where what I wanted was seriously on sale. I didn’t need the whole gift card and Rach found a sketch pad she had really wanted on sale and asked me to use the rest of my gift card to get it. It worked out so that I was only over by 26 cents which was perfect since I only had about $1 in change on me. As we left I realized that I had a shirt Rachel had gotten for Christmas in my bag that needed to be returned to Walmart. I had lost the receipt so we weren’t sure how it would work out but thought it worth a go. Rach decided that since I had gotten her the sketch pad she would give me the equivalent from what she got back on the shirt so we could pick up some eggs.
We returned the shirt and wandered around the store as Rach looked for things she might be interested in buying. After picking several different things then putting them down we finally found a scarf she liked enough to buy and headed over to get the eggs. It was there in the dairy aisle that Rach spotted the organic pancake batter spray bottle she and her siblings loved and always begged me for (which I nearly always refuse being that it is $4.15 for 13 pancakes!!!) She decided to spend her $4 of Christmas money from the shirt on that (partly because it is her favorite but also because her siblings adore it and always spend their Christmas money on each other and on her so she wanted to do something special for them) and gave me the other $1 (plus the $2 for the eggs) to get something else to fill in the gaps in our pantry.
We wandered around the grocery section for a while, picking up and putting down, trying to decide the best way to use that $1. At this point I know I had some change in my purse but hadn’t bothered to count it exactly (but as you know I had 70 cents.) After realizing that nearly all the fresh produce in our price range had mold or was past its best we headed to the canned goods to get Shamus some of his beloved green beans. I got 2 cans and a can of tuna (figuring that I might have enough change for all three if I searched hard enough and could always put one back if I didn’t.)
I was attempting to figure out how much exactly we needed as we approached the register so Rach could run and put something back and we wouldn’t inconvenience the cashier. As we got in line (and I was still figuring) a cashier came over from another lane to say she was open so so much for that. I realized just as we got there that we were over by a quarter, and after much searching I realized I didn’t have it and would have to put back a can of green beans. (Now this is just a matter of cents and if you are not in a place where cents matter then it is not a big deal but in this case it was and a can of green beans would be a big help and make Shamus very happy.) So, I was a bit disappointed and let the cashier know before hand that I would probably have to take off a can when we were done. However, as she checked each item out the can of pancake batter came up cheaper and when it was all said and done I still had a nickel left.
Like I said, it probably doesn’t seem like a big deal but these are the moments tend to amaze me most since it reminds me how much God cares about the details. Sure it is only a few cents but He cared enough about those few cents and provided. He cares about those small things. He cares that my husband can focus because he can grab some green beans or tuna when he is hungry and I haven’t had a chance to make a meal. He cares that my kids love that pancake batter and that Rachel was trying to do something nice for her siblings. He cares about our wants as much as about our needs and wants to give us good gifts, even if it is just some eggs and a couple cans. He cares about Rachel’s love of all things ninja, that she needed long sleeved shirts and a scarf with cloves attached (which is adorable and keeps her from forgetting gloves). He cares that we have what we need to be free to create. He cares that we have our daily bread whether it is food, clothes, or whatever we need to be the best people we can be.
And yesterday Rachel came to me and said, “I am glad we are poor.” When I asked why she explained that we are so much more appreciative of things both big and small when we have little and that when we had the ability to just get what we needed and buy small treats that we didn’t appreciate them nearly as much. That alone is the perfect reminder that God is at work, that He would open the eyes of my 13 year old to this truth, a truth that often grown ups don’t see.
I think she is right, though I would really like to be able to pay our bills on time. I know what it is like not to get paid for work done and really want to make things right but even there God is working and will do as He has planned.